002: unifriend - 16th october 2025 | 22.25p.m.

i thought that i had found someone who understood when him and i became friends. i was trying to be more forward and less anxious about making friends so i invited him over as soon as i could. we sat and talked about books and films and all other things for hours until he had to go and both of us were sad about it. this was the start of september. actually almost exactly a month ago from the day that i am writing this.

he found a group of people and i did not. i have not been into university for a few weeks and it has not bothered him. he didn't even ask where or how i was. i'm not bothered about him having friends of his own as that would be weird. it's just that this happened again and it sucks. especially when i thought that this would be different. he has started to ignore me when i talk about things that are not what he wants to talk about and i'm kind of giving up. i hate to write it because i used to enjoy talking to him but he found other people who he enjoys being around or talking to more. and now he is another person who texts me when his monday is going shit and he wants someone to listen to him. i hope he's not doing it on purpose. i would really rather him tell me to shut the fuck up and to leave him alone than be ignored like this again. i can't keep fucking dealing with this. it feels absolutely pathetic to still be upset about this in university. i thought maybe this year i'd found someone who wouldn't end up treating me like this but fucks sake here we are again. i'm just wondering how long it'll take before he forgets to respond to me and i'm near to a stranger again.